Everything was my fault?

06-11-08,10.20pm

May i knw wad was my fault?
m i nt suite b sis?
m i dat useless?
m i dat stupid?
m i dat bad?
AM I???!!!!
everything blame on me since my sis went 2 KL.
what is my fault?!!!!
i shouted at my dad.
bcoz now u r the elder sis in this family!
u should take care of ur sis n bro!
WTF!!!!!!!!!!!!
is it wrong dat i m d eldest in this family n i gt 2 take care of them?!!!!
mayb i nid!
bt i tried my best b4 2 take care of them!
i did help them in thier studies!!!
i m nt dat selfish!!!
i hate to be controled by your!
i knw what m i doin right now!!!!!!!
PLS give me some FREDOM!!!
DATS ENUFF FOR ME!!!!!!!!
i m tired whever i bec frm skul.
i felt stress vf my SPM.
i cun help much in family.
hope your understand!
STOP what are your doin now!!!!!
N let me FINISH my SPM!!!!!!
PLS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
my mum blame vf my hamster...
at 1st she agree me 2 kip them s pet.
bt now....everything cums to my family!
my mum,uncle,sis,n bro!
你真的那么迷信吗？
老鼠会影响你们？！！
i reli dun blif it!
i dun think my hamster will 影响那么多事发生！
since i kip them,
总总事情不断发生。。
我姐被人撞。。
我妈被auntie maria撞。。
cun gram insurance 4 our car...
妹妹牙齿发炎。。
uncle's car mirror 被石头弄破。。
bro fall down frm motor...
act wad was the pro?!!!
is it reli related 2 my hamster?
if yes...what should i do?
i dun hope 2 let ppl kip my hamster..
i reli love them vry vry much!
my mum told me nt 2 rare it anymore!!!
i damn angry!!
my little hamster........
how do you think?
i cun live without your....
你们已经占了我生活中60%...
anywhere....what was my pro now?
my dad+mum blaming me!
nvr take gud care of my sis!
eventough i study the same skul s my sis...
bt i duno what was happening.......
they blame me bcoz of i nvr lok at her in skul!
again~~~!!!!!n again!!!!!
i nt the same recess vf her+i have my own thing 2 do suring my skultime!!!
i go to skul nt to take care of them!
what they wanna do i aso cun control it!
mix vf bad frens?!why i duno?
huh?!!!hu ask her study at the last calss?!!
hu ask ur 2 blif what she say?!
i told ur b4 bt ur du1 2 listen 2 me!
fine!
now blame on me!!!!!
i reli hate what was ur doin!
this is bcoz what your had given 2 your family!!!!!!!!
STRESS!!!!
whenver v watch tv...even jz an hour...
dad will start 2 scold us!
he scold us dat v nvr revise!oni watch tv!
WTF?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
whenver i revise...where r u?
du i nid 2 take a book n revise infrnt of u?!!!!!
PLS gv us FREEDOM!!!k?!!!
i try 2 get away frm u!
eventought dinner n lunch.
i wun eat vf your!
i rether not to eat or eat alone in the dinning hall!
i du1 2 hear anything related 2 study cums out frm your words!
I KNW I NT SUITE BE THE ELDER IN THIS FAMILY!
YOUR WORDS KEEPS IN MY MIND!
I KEEP THINKING OF THE PROBLEM!
WHAT SHOULD I DO?!!!
I CAN'T CONCENTRATE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
MY DEAR HAMSTER....I LOVE YOUR!
I WUN LEAVE YOUR TO OTHERS!!!!!!!!!!!