mY Smile!

20.08.2008...
i will alwas rmb dis day!
ful of suffering n sadness~!
when i week up......i felt i nt feeling wel..
lying on d bed...until 10.30am..~
pig rite?xD....
bt.....is reli diff 4 me 2 week up..bcoz i haven gastric!
i keep finding my medic...
duno where i put pula...
suddenly i rmb dat i left in my dad's condor...
OMG...wad can i do now?kip lying on d bed?
sob....bibi..wad had u take yterday?
u nvr take anything 4 3 meals!ok?!!!
y u kip 4geting abt your meal!!!!!
start frm 2day!!u must rmb it!!!!
huh?kip reminding myslf...
bt at the end....lazy 2 eat....
mummy alwas co me down 4 dinner.....
my replied would b :"wait la!aiyo!i wil eat later la!i m nt baby...k?nid 2 co everytime..."
act..i m...
i nid sum1 2 co me oni i go 2 eat....
bt i lazy la...lazy 2 take bowl.lazy 2 open my mouth 2 eat!
if sum1 co me out 4 KFC or MCD or whatever fast food...
i will quickly change myslf n hang out vf my frens!haha....
mayb dis had bcum my habit since i was f1....
my skul time end at 3.30pm everyday..
when i cum bec..i fell tired....after bath..go 2 sleep le...until night..after my tuition..
oni i have my dinner alone...
after sumtimes...i felt bored 2 have dinner alone...
so..i start 2 skip my meals.....cum bec frm tuition go up straight in2 my room.
paiseh nehx~!let ur knw how lazy is bibi...kaka..
i m sure no1 will hate or lazy when cum 2 eating!haha...
m i a Robort?...nonid 2 eat aso can survive...
11am..i week up straight i on my laptop...ON-9！
i ren zhu my gastric....chat vf al my frens...
i tot i wan 2 go sherly house 4 study group...
bt..how i go?huh?so i ffk again!hehe....
i study alone at hum...
ADD　MATHS again!!!
my favourite sub..........(opposite la..aiyo)
i reli wan 2 faint by doin all d question!
bang d wall better!
no..cant!bang d wall i will fel pain!
fatty piggy!!!where r u??!!!!!i wan 2 bang ur big tummy!!!
huh~!!!!!!
gastric pula nak buat revision..how can i do it?
go 2 sleep better la!....
i cant sleep pula...!
sms?no1 reply me by using 013...
ask my bro gv bac my 016..
walao~!12msj...
okok..i reply all of u~!
yeah!finally reply all after 15min..hehe....
one msj bec 2 me again...
"sry...kwai yoong.i think i du1 d MP3 + USB!coz i dun have enuff $ d buy it"
what d hell!!!b4 dat i haven buy ur mp3 n usb d time..u n ur lao gong kip asking me!
kip disturb me by sms!
i told u..my dear fren....my fren oversea la!how i take stock frm him?u wan 2 buy go PC fair la!stupid!
no...i du1.PC fair nt cheap enuff....4gb d mp3 nid 150...
k..if u wan.....wait 4 it la!!!!dun kip asking me..
now i gt d stock n it cost oni 95 after discounting 30%.....
my dear..wanna gv me bac again?
dun soh la!!!gv me money now la!!!dun kip sms me n distrub me la!!~~!!!
i wan 2 tell u i hate ur dis type of ppl!
not oni me~!almost hol class hate u!du n knw it?!
it is bcoz of ur attitude!!!alwas change ur mind in last min!
u dstroy our plan!destroy our project!
get away frm me!
i had think twice..should i scold her...
nop..i nt dare..so i uses dis way 2 lepas my geram!
fine..now is over...another 1 make me unhapi n marah betul!!
ex bf...sms me...
what happen 2 u?y u nvr receive my co?y u change ur no.?
huh?dis my business...k?!!!!!!
dun ask so much!
my personal thing u nonid 2 knw so much!
dun 4gt how u treat me b4 dat!
nt oni nvr blif me...still gv me stupid excuses!!!
damn!!!!!!!!!stupid!!!!!!!
what a silly Q still cum 4ward me?
CAN U PLS GV ME NEW CHANCE?I WILL APPRECIATE IT!!!
u knw d word "APPRECIATE"??
pls go 2 check d dictionary b4 u saying dis to me!pls!!!
if u knw how 2 appreciate it...u wun do such stupid things 2 me!!!
STOP saying SORRY to ME!!!!!
i DONT WANT TO HEAR THAT ANYMORE!!!!
bt...y du i cry when i saying dat?
stop crying!bibi...u can do it!stop...stop...STOP!!!!
dun cry bcoz of this!!waste ur tears!!!
STILL I CANT STOP IT???
I HATE HIM!HATE VRY VRY MUCH!!!
i nid some1 2 accompany me?
bt no1 wan 2 accompany me.....
well....i use my own way 2 make me fel high 4 4gt abt it...
what can i do?
i try 2 shout...
bt i skad sum1 hear it...
so,i try 2 cut myslf....
yeah~...
is fun!is pain...bt i dun fel it.....
lets c my hand....




is dis d best way?
yaya....dis is...fell hapi after doin this...nonid any1 2 accompany me when i m unhapi...
i still can solve it my using dis method...
fun+fast+high!
i m in sick act....i dun have much energy 2 scold ppl or hit my piggy...
i fel cooler n cooler after i make a cut on my hand...
shhh..i nvr tell my family..
i ate 4 panadol at once!...force myslf 2 sleep..
OMG...still cant sleep?!!!
bibi rr...wad u wan 2 do?
sms again?okay.....sms my classmate....
no1 reply..coz my fren having party....
4gt jor......aiks.........y dun i go party leh?
if i go..i m sure i will nt b unhapy....bt i m sick...
mummy dun allow...receive sum1 sms pula...
sms till half nvr reply......huh?sleep again?
k.....dun angry......cool down...let him sleep..bcoz he sick...
Y NO1 ACCOMPANY ME WHEN I UNHAPPY?
Y ALL ONLY KNOW HOW 2 ENJOY?
Y ALL FIND ME WHEN THEY HAVE PROBLEM??
BCOZ OF MY FAULT AGAIN?COZ NVR TELL THEM D TRUTH!
I TELL THEN I M HAPPY!
I WEARING A MASK INFRONT OF MY FRENS!
PRETAND TO BE HAPPY..
I M SORRY...
Are this only d smile i given your...?






ya~!dats is...my smile....it had been a history in my f5 that your saying my smile is d sweetest among the gals in my class...
i knw it is impossible 2 say it was d sweetest....
bcoz i love 2 smile whenever i was in trouble...
sick or face problem...
anywhere..your had creat sweet memories to me..
i will rmb it..and keep smiling...
ntg can pull me down whenever i smile!